oh man… what a crazy 48hrs…
last night ryan and i were invited to a dinner party that consisted of westerners. most of them actually hailed from the States, so it was nice to have that in common. the dinner was at the home of a couple named matt and monica, and they couldn’t be more opposite from each other. i will say though, matt was soooo hilarious! this guy can talk about anything… non-stop… ryan and i couldn’t stop laughing at him. he and his wife, and their friends whom we met, were very kind and inviting to us. it was a good time.
this morning we left for cambodia at 5am for the purposes of a visa run. even though we just visited the border of cambodia, there were so many differences compared to thailand. for instance, children beggars. children walk around begging for money from anyone that will look at them. there are beggars in thailand, but it definitely isn’t as bad, and it certainly isn’t children. the begging children were quite cute though.
when i was younger, i hated surprises so much that if i started reading a book, a few chapters in i would skip ahead and read the last chapter. i never wanted to be caught off guard with anything. once when i took a holiday home while living in new york, my friend phoned me to let me know that there would be people waiting to “surprise” me with their greeting; she knew how much i disliked surprises. i think it was toward the end of ‘03 that i finally didn’t mind surprises (though it was, and still is, hard to pull one over on me).
what am i trying to say? a lot of things have happened in my life that can be categorized as “unexpected happenings,” or, if you’d like, surprises. and they are things that if you would’ve told me five years ago what my life would be like now, i would not have believed you. and sometimes i wonder if i would’ve liked to have known what the future held for me… though, in some circumstances, it would’ve been nice. nonetheless, it’s interesting how much surprise the future holds. i don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow, nor did i know what was going to happen, say, 48hrs ago. life is such an adventure, and i fear that there are those out there who take it too seriously. it is rather cliche, but life is so short. you should take risks and dare to believe in the beauty and power of your dreams, ya know? i really feel like anything is possible, but so many people just wait around for something to fall in their laps (i’m the guiltiest of all), instead of going out there and claiming what they want. sometimes i think our biggest fault of all is allowing others around us to hold us back. since when did our lives belong to someone else?
five years ago, i did not expect to be here, in this moment, in thailand. my journey of 23 years definitely hasn’t been ordinary or even comparable to those around me, but i really wouldn’t change anything. and that’s what makes us unique; our stories. the decisions i’ve made in life, yes even the millions of bad ones, have only added to my already complex nature, and through it all, i have had one helluva good time.
[end motivational speech] — i honestly don’t know where all that came from, but some of the things i said reminded me of what one might read in a high school yearbook! blah blah blah pointless words pointless words.
aaaanyway, listen. have a good sunday and love life a little …for cryin’ out loud. and eat some chocolate… because… it’s an enjoyable thing to do. you know i’m right.
